my complicated life..

2010-05-27T20:16:00.002+08:00

went back to raffles hospital today again to sign the letter of agreement and had blood test taken today as well..when the HR person told me that, i was like omg la. and i guess she knew i'm scare, so she joked and told me not to be afraid, she just donated her blood as well, the injection wont be pain. and it's in chinese..hahaha.. even calling to told me about my work, she can talk to me in chinese and english. lol

so looking forward to work on next tue!!!!

great things comes ahead..

2010-05-26T16:31:00.002+08:00

Yeah!!! finally found a job at raffles hospital..

initially i was given the position of PA because they say i gt no experience in pharmacy..but i received a call just now saying i will be working as a PT.. WOOHOO!!!

2010-05-11T21:15:00.002+08:00

finally, graduation ceremony was over..

jonathan said he will plan a chalet. but till now, still haven..haha..complain to him back and he told us that he will meet up at the end of may??

hmm..few days back..mango bite my finger cause i piak him for eating fish bone, then he angry. bleeding lo!! but he was guilty.. he came near me and i scold him back. told him to get lost, stay far from me and he really did. so funny!!

pictures shall be uploaded later!! =))

2010-05-07T21:02:00.004+08:00

nowadays, i really dunno wad i wan to do with my life..had too much to worry about..haiz..to work or not? part time or full time job??

i tend to give up a lot of opportunities and things.. really regretted alot of things...
why cant i have everything in my life..lol...

hmm.never look back to the past ba..
i wish i wish.....

2010-04-30T21:47:00.002+08:00

mango was so funny!!!! his butt was itchy and so he went to use his butt and glide on the floor..walk quite a distance..too bad la, he cant reach it..muahaha..when i pointed at him laugh out, he pai seh..faster walk away..lol

suspicious..or am i thinking too much??

cough cough.....

2010-04-27T20:19:00.003+08:00

saw belinda filming on mon at khatib area..haha..a rare opportunity, so i went to haolian to eileen at night..lol

not intending to celebrate my bdae this yr!!!

Serene hates thunder!
rain rain go away..

2010-04-19T14:20:00.004+08:00

back to blogging..many things happened recently..thanks, everything's fine again. doesn't feel like talking much about it..so shall post some pictures at the moment.

my cousin playing hide-and-seek.

mango sitting at my grandma place..haha

having an interview..

interview with test..

test on calculation..

wish me luck..

2010-02-25T01:09:00.005+08:00

had no idea what jobs to look for..clinic assistant? pharmacy assistant? patient service associate??

found them online..dunno whether to send resume..

interviews?? pay??? working hours??

had this convo with weiting recently and she's so funny la..

sleepless nights again...

2010-02-16T10:53:00.003+08:00

Fan gan towards her!!!

Ya la ya la. With her, everything becomes my fault

nobody wont ever spare a thought on how i helped the family..just my selfishness on her..and her..everybody just forgot how she treat the family..just how i treated her..

tired..just feel like putting an end.......

~~being loved~~

2010-02-08T00:38:00.002+08:00

TADA!!!!
My accomplishment for today!!!
who say it's a never ending game..lol

ok..i know i should be studying at this critical time now..

ciao..

2010-02-01T23:16:00.003+08:00

brought mango to cut nails today..and thanks to her irresponsibility!! mango was suffering..nails bleeding..cause they are too long, the xie gen grow with the nails..cause she dun wan bring him go and what's more, kept pushing the responsibility to eileen..using the excuse of studying..please lo!! whose the one who really studying lo..

but forget it..eileen and i gonna bring mango once a month over to the grooming shop to cut nails..the money she pays!!! fair enough..and we are good not to collect cab fare from her le lo.

2010-01-27T21:14:00.002+08:00

TADA!!! am here to hao lian my grades..muahaha...
and see..wad's my gan xiang is: probably i made the right choice of quitting cheer..lol

UT3 on the 6th, 9th (X2) , 11th feb
last lap..jia yous to my UT3!!!!

2010-01-26T23:27:00.002+08:00

RESUME finally completed!!!!
phew..
but i was wondering whether did i did it correctly..

hmm..i wanted to apply jobs at hospitals or even polyclinics..but was afraid of their interviews..omg..or should i find a clinic to gain experience first???

2010-01-22T23:06:00.004+08:00

ponned sch today again..cox no mood..raining heavily..shu fu ok!!
but see..the faci made a mistake and still marked me as present!! hahaha..
my fren even told me to do RJ and all..lol
but guess she will still edit la..
X in the end..

accompanied my mum to funeral..stayed for awhile then went to fish manhattam..with my mum's fren
yum yum!! lol

dun wanna grow up...............
trouble, troubles..coming along..

2010-01-21T20:53:00.001+08:00

~~supermen~~ superwoman returns!!!!

hahaha..funny to see her wearing this..but she wore cox of my sis project. lol

and to hao lian my mango now.

see! he's shitting..lol

ciao.

2010-01-03T15:46:00.000+08:00

FUCK!!!!!

pissed off..

2009-12-29T22:44:00.002+08:00

so looking forward to tml!!!
going JB again..
and this time, we going to a new shopping centre!!!!
woohoo~~~

miss stunting..really really much!!!

2009-12-24T23:56:00.003+08:00

MERRY XMAS!!!!

went to seoul garden today..with weiting, junhui and martin..I think i really do eat alot......YES!! I DO EAT ALOT!!! (as said by junhui) hahaha.. after that we went arcade, ya kun and home...
weiting told us alot abt her stuffs happening at her clinics and it's really funny hearing about the doctor's attitude..like saying back the patients and all..lol

And i enjoyed myself today!

Ciao......

2009-12-23T23:07:00.001+08:00

LG GD900 Crystal!!!
nice nice!
i wanna get this phone!!!!!

I wish, i wish...

2009-12-18T21:10:00.001+08:00

WAITING!!!!!

2009-12-17T20:18:00.000+08:00

stayed at home for the whole day today..
WO YAO FA MEI LIAO!!!!! lol

2009-12-16T22:21:00.000+08:00

GUILTY!!!

sorry and thanks lots to u..=)))

2009-12-12T19:25:00.003+08:00

FYP evaluation finally over!! heave a sigh of relief.

guess everything was ok except for the 4th accessor..(at least better as compared to the 4th accessor) ma de..who will think of studying appendix..those wierd qns he asked like, what does the buffers/SDS PAGE Gel contain? What is the difference between running buffer and transfer buffer?? and as if we gt learn about the transfer buffer la..it's for westen blotting only..ji dan.

2009-12-08T20:40:00.003+08:00

got our first CAM lab session today which was FUN..machiam had a cooking lesson with the little herb we gotten. then view them on microscopy..hahaha.. after that, it's thin layer chromatography test..which i wasnt even paying attention to it..i was hooked on to viewing other people's profile with jenn and others..and i was disturbing them as well..hahaha..

2009-12-07T22:54:00.003+08:00

so stress now..FYP evaluation on this sat..and i found out there's really alot of the theory part that i dunno..jia lat!!!

UT on fri again..and i haven even start preparing..Zzz.

and finally holidays are coming!!!! 3weeks, 3weeks..YESH!

2009-11-23T20:51:00.002+08:00

AM SICK!!! since thurs..haiz.. and i dun have any mood to go sch tml again..pon today le..should i pon again??

HOLIDAY MOOD!!!!!!

but there's FYP evaluation on 12th dec..omg!!!!

Last last week, on mon? , Jenn and I were playing with watches..borrowing watches from others...cox the lesson was too bored..hahaha..

and there's this dog at the temple..so cute!!!

Ciao...

2009-11-16T22:30:00.006+08:00

See..stupid jenn..hahaha

Anybody wan free hug???

can go to her!!! cox she's pestering everyone for it..wahaha..lol

FYP for the whole of this week..

* And I got sth to say to my fren..if u came upon looking at my blog..dun worry too much ba..things like this tends to occur..just dun be affected by it..stays cheerful and let ur laughing gene mutate la..lol

2009-10-31T17:43:00.002+08:00

have to chiong FYP report again lo..
must be submitted on 25th nov (if i nv rmb wrongly)
and all i done was materials and methods..
the simplest..
CTRL + C and CTRL + V
edit.. edit... edit...
discuss...
and done!!

2009-10-20T21:31:00.002+08:00

hmm..after few weeks of peace, those f***ers are finding trouble with me again..but who cares..i dun even give a damn to it ok..and come to think of it, heng my relationship with them wasn't that good in the first place..so now, i can hen xia xin chang..no need give them face or bother about how they felt about me now..felt that i'm childish?? as if i care luh..and it's like the pot is calling the kettle black too..lol.

and today i so blur lo..knowing that i will be having fyp after sch, i can still forget to wear long pants, covered shoes and bring lab coat..when there will be auditors coming..Zzz..but heng everything's alright..hee..

fyp tml again..

ciao..

2009-10-19T20:59:00.003+08:00

am back after letting my blog rot..

AND YAY!!!! I finally changed my blogskin..hee..i spent less than an hour figuring out the codes and choosing the blogskin ok..there's improvement le..*CLAP!* lol..

Pharm Legi again tml..dread going to tml's class..Zzz

2009-10-06T20:01:00.003+08:00

second day of sch: Pharmaceutical Legislation and Marketing

omg..this module was so stress!!!!! esp with that faci..she gt sooo high expectation can..asked so many qns..tsk..
lesson was boring.....as expected..Zzz

hmm...quite looking forward to psychology!! on thurs!!!
asked my fren to double check the timing and it's really 9.45am..phew..heng ar..that means i can slp longer..hee

lastly..today is mango's birthday!! he's officially 2year old..

2009-10-05T21:13:00.003+08:00

first lesson of sch : complementary and alternatives medicine

hmm..lesson was rather interesting and slack..went to first breakout without reading much resources, done my ppt at second meeting and slack throughout second break..slack slack slack...lol

tml lesson will be Pharmaceutical Legislation and Marketing..
Zzzz

2009-10-03T17:37:00.002+08:00

went to wild wild wet yesterday and it's fun!! I enjoyed myself alot alot.. We even planned to go escape theme next time..roller coaster!!! hee..

but the thing is..

tml will be the last day of holiday..when will we be free to go there again?? 10 more weeks to next holiday..9 more weeks to submission of fyp report and 11 more weeks to fyp assessment..omg!!!!!

she dun look forward to sch reopening....

2009-09-30T22:59:00.001+08:00

she just doesn't deserve my respect!!! pissed off..

2009-09-23T21:28:00.003+08:00

my blog is rotting!!! my blog gonna rot!!! my blog is rotting!!! my blog gonna rot!!! my blog is rotting!!! my blog gonna rot!!! my blog is rotting!!! my blog gonna rot!!! my blog is rotting!!! my blog gonna rot!!! my blog is rotting!!! my blog gonna rot!!! my blog is rotting!!! my blog gonna rot!!! my blog is rotting!!! my blog gonna rot!!! my blog is rotting!!! my blog gonna rot!!! my blog is rotting!!! my blog gonna rot!!!

ok..blog updated!! lol

2009-09-18T20:10:00.001+08:00

contented with my life now..

i'm a blessed gal......

2009-09-07T22:26:00.000+08:00

Kuromi plush doll..

hmm..feel like getting one..(in search of it..) hee.

2009-09-06T22:00:00.004+08:00

Hmm..dun wanna blog de..cox i was waiting for my blog to rot? (my blog rotted for 1week) wahaha
buttt i found this movie:

"Bring It On: Fight to the Finish"

YEAH!! i'm downloading it now...lalala~~~

Click here: Bring it On: Fight to the Finish Trailer

2009-08-31T21:11:00.000+08:00

my phone is giving me problems..
thanks to my carelessness..
it committed suicide again and again...
thus causing it to be "half-paralysed"..
malfunctioned...
byebye!!! sooner or later..

foolish of me..i thought by quitting..it's the end of everything..but it doesn't seems the way..

awaiting their karma....

**lesson learnt: never treat people too kind..! neither to trust anyone's words/action easily... (but it doesn't seems to get into my mind. how can i do it?)

2009-08-30T17:22:00.000+08:00

crystal empire!!

mango sleeping..

but i woke him up..hehe..

2009-08-29T21:36:00.001+08:00

SERENE WANNA SHOUT OUT THIS:

"SHE MISSES CHEER TRNGS!!!!!"

(but definitely not the ppl there!!)

haiz..

2009-08-19T13:47:00.006+08:00

last day of sch for ytd..lab management!

had lots of fun in class ytd..was throwing blue tacks around..~~screaming~~ and running all around..back to my childhood!! memories just flashed back..and i miss my sec sch life..really.!! lol

after lesson, we went to lib to study ut..but they ended up playin game..Zzz..

see that..so cute lo..hmm..I hereby declare that genghong passed his arts..finally!! lol..

but.. see these again...no comments..lol

and now, presenting mango aka man man...

ciao..

2009-08-14T18:05:00.006+08:00

i've been climbing stairs up recently..7th floor..instead of taking lift hm..haha..so funnn..wee~~~

rejecting people's request is soooo difficult!!!!

2009-08-12T00:18:00.003+08:00

hmm.. found this quiz quite accurate..to a certain extent..
http://apps.facebook.com/whatsyourbigsjtypo/quiz/questions?_fb_fromhash=073a47ae0dcab8919b87e9c863720619&auth_token=c0c65f6c865c4e41947fb3fea117db3f&installed=1

what's your biggest weakess?

esp this: You rest in who you are around the right people, but the second they say something negative about you, even in a joking way, your heart is crushed. You wish you could be a better person, but it seems so hard. You are not good at working at things, but you want to be because you want things to work.....

2009-08-11T13:47:00.001+08:00

life is impossible to be smooth all the way..there's definitely bound to be ups and downs..and now i met my downs...but i going to be strong still...i'm alright!!! so dun worry abt me...=)

2009-08-11T12:41:00.004+08:00

SHE'S NO LONGER A CHEERLEADER!!!

its indeed heart-breakening for me..i had no choice but to give up my passion under that circumstances..i'm not finding fault at anyone now but i'm just hoping at least somebody understands why i do things this way, if i even bothers explaining..i know i'm at fault too..but doesn't she??

but it's ok now..everything's over now..and thanks for whatever ur did: shemin, lingyin and james..they are the only people listening and believing me..

lesson taught: dont bother explaining things..if u cant explain clearly..it's of no use..and it complicate things even more..

i have been thinking the whole night..
perhaps (if i knew things will ended up like this) i should have given up earlier to prevent these whole misunderstandings..it's so stupid of me to realise it only till now...

but i did not regret what i did..perhaps explaining things to the wrong ppl is my greatest regret..and i guess i will definitely be happier after i adapt to my new life again!!!

2009-08-04T14:13:00.006+08:00

What the point of staying??

When trust is already gone…
When I felt there's only people picking on me…
When I had no more motivation or even the courage to go…
When there's only stress and more stress...
When I wasn’t really happy at there… just putting up a fake smile… entertaining them back…(oh nonoo..i wasn't really entertaining them!)
When more and more "disputes and misunderstandings" appears out there…but I still choose to ignore…and act as if nothing happened… (i feel like telling them, but i just dunno how to tell them..and it's not as if i'm close to them..can they even understand how i felt too and not side with their frens? that another question)

Things are different now!! Seriously…

She's unhappy......again...

2009-08-01T23:55:00.001+08:00

i'm so sooo stress!!!
stress in sch..
lessons, fyps, cheers...
and now,
stress at hm too..
just cant find any peaceful moments..
but guess maybe it's only in sch lib..
when i'm totally alone at there..
nobody disturbing me..

stop treating me like her ok!! i'm totally not like her..i will still control myself!!! u nv even give me a chance to explain myself and started all those nagging and scolding again...

yearning for her freedom.......

controlling her tears....i will be strong!!

2009-07-26T16:57:00.002+08:00

finally, i had selected my next sem modules..hee..

A235 - Psychology
A372 -Pharmaceutical Legislation and Marketing
A374 - Complementary and Alternative Medicine
A375 - Dietary Supplements

i think the modules i selected sounds interesting huh!!! looking forward to next sem!!!!

2009-07-23T00:34:00.004+08:00

rather upset abt my performance today..
maybe i could have done better...
but i choosed to give up in the end...

no endurance anymore..
no motivation anymore...

or maybe i should have just give up totally...??
hmm..
considering.........
since i know i wont even have the chance of entering..

and looking at the grades i'm having now,
my GPA gonna drop..
maybe alot???
WTH..
wad's wrong with me..??

2009-07-20T09:59:00.005+08:00

G301 has finally come to an end..!

4 more weeks after today!!
1 more week of UTs..
and yeah!!!
HOLIDAY!!!!
5weeks!! wee~
that's the only thing I'm looking forward to...
counting down..........

Chocolate cornflakes!!!
I'll be making choco cornflakes when my sis and i are both free..
YEAH!!!!

2009-07-12T01:07:00.003+08:00

went to sentosa today with cheer ppl..initially i dun wanna go de..fyp evalution on wed leh..omg..but kena force by james..kept nagging and psycho me like an "old ah pei" la..shh..lol..trng first then enjoy..played volley ball, and most importantly, played with stunts..and i kept telling them to catch me catch me..i dun wanna fall straight into the water..and i think i enjoyed it..it's been long since i fly..wee~~~

my hand hurts and i dun even know how i injured it..and my back is aching again...tsk

2009-07-10T22:33:00.009+08:00

had lab management ut today, and i think i'm going to flunk it again..all the questions asked are like so long..and i was really trying to figure out what they are asking lo..tsk..

and i think my "guai pi" coming back again...
I think i'm starting to isolate myself again...
class..turns off..
cheer..?????
haiz.......
i wanna go escape!! or even wild wild wet!!!!
anyone interested also?? (hehehe..)
i wanna take a break!!!!

i kept asking myself to hang in there..
but it's difficult..
i kept asking myself not to care..
but it does bothers me too..
i kept preventing myself from thinking too much..
but my brain just couldn't stop thinking abt it..
wad's wrong with me!!!?

2009-07-07T09:48:00.002+08:00

things are soo different now..i have to be strong..

jia you serene!!!

2009-06-29T22:33:00.003+08:00

"she's alone once again...!"

i can't sense ur concern for me anymore!!
it's so obvious..
so i'm not thinking too much ok...
and i really hate the way things are now..

how i wish time could be reverse..
and i will definitely treasure the time we shared...

She's indecisive again!!! how time flies..it's been 1yr..should she join nats..??? last yr, i've been asking this qn myself and lastly i choosed not to enter at this time..bcox i'm afraid of so so so many things..i had to comfirm wif my captain on next trng..omg...

in loved wif this song..the lyrics damn meaningful..
可不可以爱我

为什麽如此的安静
为什麽明明想靠近却还在迟疑
努力的我保持镇定努力开拓话题
最後却溃不成军
＊为什麽如此的美丽
深刻的烙在心里最温柔的酷刑
每一天无法不想你
连闭上眼睛怎麽都是你
你可不可以爱我可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落
你可不可以爱我可不可以看我
反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德
拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我
快乐还是寂寞＊
Repeat ＊
想念燃烧个不停
我快置身灰烬
你是我的呼吸
你可不可以爱我可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过
告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑已告一段落
你可不可以爱我
可不可以看我
反正看或不看
我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德
拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我能给我什麽
快乐还是寂寞

2009-06-28T00:22:00.006+08:00

went to sk wif weiting ytd..walk walk around, chatted, gossiped, and had ajisen for dinner..yummy yummy!! hee..i craves for subway and pizza hut!! lol..had been eating alot recently..omg..

and on my way hm, she sent me a msg..rather gan dong la!!! and i loves u lots too..hee..=)

going watch movie this coming fri wif her and her fren, jonathan..lalala~~~

**it's stupid, for me to believe wad u've said..when u dun actually meant it...i should have knew it..but why do i still choose to believes it?? i'm such a fool**

2009-06-26T21:07:00.008+08:00

was late for class ytd..and the moment i stepped in, i kena sabo by my fren to read this..

it was like so long lo..whole page full of words..and i haven even dl it..

after i read, the faci ask another person volunteer..and now, my chance to sabo him back!! wahaha..but so unfair lo..see the differences in the number of words..tsk..

oh ya..the faci damn funny! and even random!! during sec meeting, she brought this time watcher thingy.a big big one..den she was walking around our table as she discussed with us..she stands beside me..then suddenly she so random..place the timer thing and tell me.."look like a time bomb huh".. dots lo..wahaha..

i was almost late for today's class again..realised i nv bring my adapter when i was at my hse downstairs de bus stop..heng i found out sia..den go back hm tk..waited for bus to come for a few minutes..but haven arrive and it was 9.05am so decided to take mrt cox if i tk bus, surely late again..i dun wan kena downgraded!! last time i can afford to be late, now cant!! haha

there's supposed to be training tml..but because of H1N1 there isn't liao..and i'm starting to miss trngs!!! idk..but nvm..i'm going out tml..Whee~~

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2009-06-21T03:56:00.003+08:00

it's 4am in the morning now..

and i'm still wide awake...

just to watch boys over flowers..haha..

and she's in loved with kim hyun joong..his personality..so sweet!!! aww..!!!

2009-06-12T23:12:00.001+08:00

performance tml again!! jia you serene!!! jia you everyone!!! gogogo!!!!!

2009-06-10T23:38:00.008+08:00

warning!!! i shall be writting a long post..had a 2day 1night bonding camp..it's so fun lo..although i'm tired..i had lots to say..but i dunno how to write them..lol..played many many games..and i enjoyed them..

during the night, we played bingo with our coach..she suggested we do push up as we played along..number nv tio de must do la..and push ups is increased by 1 each time..i kept doing the push ups lo..so sway nv tio my numbers..kept having push ups like throughtout the game from 1 - 45 times..46 somebody bingo so we need do double..i think i had hundred and hundreds of push ups la..totally no energy that i needa my fren help me resist when i reach 30+ pushups...after the game, i could feel my arms are tremblin and so numb..

our team won the amazing race which i nv ever thought we will win de..cox i cant run..whenever there's running, my stomach will have those wierd wierd feeling..my own mindsets la..the cheer ppl will know, i tend to give up easily, esp PTs..i need motivation!!! lotsa lotsa motivation..i think i need bring the notes some of the cheer members written for me de luh.. den as i run or do PTs, i can kept looking at wad they written de..gimme some motivation man..lol..

we had water activities too..the committes were being aimed..cox they aren't wet..so funny..i kena too..for 1 of the activity..cox my clothes and hair was rather dry...they were supposed to aim at the baby instead of the protector..the protector will cover the baby la..but they aim at me instead when i was totally far away from the baby sia..i siam kai liao..wasn't protecting the baby..muahaha..

btw..thanks for those who written the notes..although 1 is anonymous..there's no name leh..lol..i wanted to write for the cheer ppl too..but pai seh huh..i written 2only..no time..

had a mini routine within my team called CCB.."cheer crazy bitches"
the cheer was like this:
We, are CCB..
legendary CCB..
we fight, we cheer, u crazy bitch..
go CCB..YEAH!..

routine de is:
C..C..B
we cheer, we're crazy, you bitch
step aside, and let us fight
and we shall show you all our might!

YEAH!! i found my les partner, ling yin..she's so cute la..see her face so funny de..makes me laugh.lol..

fyp report!!! omg..how am i going to finished it!!! upcomings UTs not studied yet..

2009-06-04T13:22:00.007+08:00

hmm..all my fyp team member de genes mutate liao..as wad waichun said..we became sot sot de..from ytd, i kept laughing non-stop for ard 10mins..with liting..cant see the sight of her and waichun..if not, i will starts lauging again..tsk..my stomach cramping..lol..

went to play catching during my fyp break today..raj started this whole thing..he started chasing me without giving any warnings..all because he wanted to snatch my shoe..liting, waichun and chiayee jian si bu jiu..lol..and as i was running, i was screaming all over..from w3 to w1..haha..damn funny la..but it was a good entertainment today!! lol.

oh ya..we saw this it helpdesk guy during breaktime at w1 and after fyp..he's the one that help me wif my lappy on last thurs..haha..and waichun and i think he's quite good looking..but raj opposed to what we say..dunno leh..but nvm..i got my "next target"..shh...
anyone wanted to go it helpdesk?? jio me out..i'll be the most willing to acc u!!! lol

my kneecap still hurts despite going to sinseh..it's been 1week..shit la..should i go now or after the performance???

2009-06-03T12:48:00.006+08:00

ok..my laptop is finally fixed!!!

but right now, serene is feeling utterly disappointed and she felt like giving up..in her studies..but sh knew she cant..all she could say to herself is "it's the last year already, hang on there and everythings gonna be alright!!"
She never ever going to like this RP system..cox she's always in her own world, dreaming out there in class..

~~For cheer trng however, she did felt some motivation to go..at least luh, as compared to b4..but except for pt..~~ok..she take back up she said..Mon performance was rather alright..ASU!! but she nv lock properly again..tsk..Photos wanted!!!

2009-05-29T22:05:00.002+08:00

ouch..my knee cap hurts!!! was force to see a sinseh just now..so pain..it was the first time i went there..when my back hurts i also nv go lo..eileen and crystal kept laughing at me..ma de..hai wo kept laughing and ~~crying~~ no.. my tears drop down only..lol..they so BADDD!!! BIG BULLYYY!!!! I ANGRY liao..I wanna COMPLAINNN!!!!

trng and performance on mon...and even more trngs awaiting me!!! omgggg..
and there's even fyps too..
and i still needa go acer..cant go tml le..have difficulty walking..shit..
also, i think i dun have much time to study for UTs liao..
my holidays are gone!!!
just like thattt!!!!

2009-05-28T22:33:00.007+08:00

my laptop is spoiled!! like again!!! whenever the holidays are coming, probs will start appearing..lappy's sick now..I think i'll be bringing it to acer soon!!!

I dread going to acer la!!!

reach sch at 9am today and realised my lappy was spoiled when i'm with the faci..was suppose to send my ut ans to her because it wasn't uploaded properly..but no matter how i restart my lappy, my screen remained blank. ASS la!! went to IT help desk in the end. but they say my hardware gt prob liao..i needa go acer repair..hai wo go back class late too..arghx

first break went to find my faci again..gone to meet michelle, the module chair and she helped me project my screen at another monitor but failed..gone back class late again...

during the second break, meet my faci and went to it help desk again..decided to pon third meeting since I dun understand anything..but the sway thing is i actually meet my faci at there..and she sits rather near to me..i think she overheard my convo wif my fren la..omg

my third meeting was spent in the lib..emo-ing..listening music..and sleeping.. hehehe...but the lib was so cold...

have fyp first den gone to cheer trng..
performance on next mon..stress!!! i will be stunting too!!!
wish me luck!!!

2009-05-26T10:57:00.002+08:00

went to tk weight during trng ytd..and i was so shock to see my weight la..was asked to gain 1kg by next mth..tsk..can i dun wan???

2009-05-24T22:25:00.002+08:00

See!! mango soo cute!!!! hee=)

2009-05-22T10:45:00.004+08:00

wtf..
my faci did not change team in the end..
i expect the faci to change de..
it's the 5week le lo!!!

performance on 1st june!!! omg..

i'm addicted to wu ke qun - ai tai tong song recently!!!!
吃不能吃睡不能睡
没有了你全都不对
我都学不会把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠
笑不能笑哭不敢哭
人不像人鬼不像鬼
朋友都说这不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯
能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了情它太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法爱情割舍
我不能睡
我不能够不能够不爱了
吃不能吃睡不能睡

life seems so unfair..
esp when u dun even know how to fight for ur rights!!!

2009-05-21T19:11:00.000+08:00

YEAH!!! I SO SOO LOOKING FORWARD TO CHANGING TEAM TML!!!!

2009-05-20T23:59:00.007+08:00

hmm..i will be working on the 30thmay..who huh?? drag me go work with him!!! lol..and that means i wont be going to the helicon camp liao..hehehe...

UTs tml and even fri too!! wish me luck..cox till now, i still dun get it..=)

some random pics taken quite some time ago!!

ice ice!! raj and i were playin with it..our entertainment..lol

pictures taken when mango is sick and unwell..

but now..he's healthy and so soo fat again!! lol..

2009-05-19T16:59:00.003+08:00

hmm..i think i gonna flunk my first UT..wasted my time studying ytd night..arghx..
totally cant concentrate in class today!! I'm so tired and sleepy..i'm blocking wadever the faci is saying..i'm totally in my own world today!!! lol..

going to fyp now..till 6pm!! jia you serene!!!

ciao..=)

2009-05-15T23:49:00.003+08:00

KNN!! stop using me as ur excuse to go hm late too!!! mine is cox of trng ok!!! PISSED OFF!!!! i'm lacking of freedom all because of u..

I gt so many many things to blog out..but now i dunno what to write except this..tsk...

recently i gt many many place i feel like going: marina barrage!! east coast park!! i even wan go hiking too!!!
and i noticed i kept charging my phone..like everyday liao lo..omg..lousy battery!!

2009-05-14T20:59:00.003+08:00

OMG~~~ i forgot to bring my things hm again!!!
last fri i forgot to bring my charger hm and today my bangle..and it's only until my fren inform me abt it then i rmb..

AM I HAVING STM???

i almost forgot to bring my shoes too..for trng on mon!! walked to the 5th floor already den suddenly rmb abt it..so bo bian, i had to make a u-turn back hm..hai wo miss the bus la!

2009-05-08T22:09:00.002+08:00

it's my birthday today! but i'm not really excited abt it..idk..felt so tired and restless today!!! totally no idea what's going on for today lesson..i dreaded going to sch and am counting down for holidays!!!

But i loves all the presents!!! Wee~~~

to cheryl : sorry that i rejected ur request..i dun wanna go gymnas class..i dun wanna enjoy my birthday with this..

2009-05-01T00:35:00.002+08:00

REFLECTED!

firstly, sorry to those whom i showed attitude to..i know it's my fault!

at times, i've been thinking: perhaps i'm just not fit to be a cheerleader!

2009-04-29T23:38:00.001+08:00

YES!! performance finally over..**heaved a sigh of relief**

but this time round, i cant really find the satisfaction that i felt as compared to last performance..

2009-04-24T10:59:00.003+08:00

I'm so tired!! yawn....
ytd 12am den reach hm..cox of trng..n performance coming up too!! it's just next week..so stress..omg..

lesson was rather relax today..had the time to slack..haha..

my back hurts..again.....but i think i can still tahan the pain...

2009-04-17T22:48:00.004+08:00

mango is discharge!!

But, he's still required to eat medicine..
and we had a hard time forcing and feeding him..
cox he dun like the smell and taste..
so awful..(to me it is, but eileen dun think so)
i tried to force him to eat..
and he accidently bite me..
on my thumb..
but he knew he's guilty..
he lick my finger back..
in the end..
i used my hand to cover his eyes..
and we secretly stuff a little to his mouth..
bit by bit..
wasted quite some time..
but at least he eaten all..
all thank to eileen idea..

2009-04-17T01:10:00.003+08:00

back from cheer trng again..

and i'm so tired now!!

and tml i needa wake up early again..

all thanks to the fyp..

felt so sleepy everytime..

esp when the faci was doing the talking..

is he so power of making ppl drowsy??

but i really really do need to voice out..

seriously speaking..

i felt less motivated to go..

kept having the ~~urge or~~ thinking to quit cheer..

lockings, PTs.........

where's my determination???

perhaps cox i'm too used to my days without cheer trng..

But I think i'm staying on!!

for this period of time..

2009-04-15T21:45:00.004+08:00

mango is hospitalised!!! he's now at a pet pet clinic..*sobsob*

No mood to go for fyp!! No mood to go cheer trng!!! I just wanna stay with him!!!! can I??

2009-04-14T21:24:00.000+08:00

mango is sick!!

2009-04-08T21:49:00.002+08:00

YIPEE!! I'M GOING M'SIA TML!!!!!

2009-04-08T00:13:00.003+08:00

Finally, i went trng today after a long mths of break! my whole body are aching like hell now..tsk..just hope i can take it......

oh..i'll be going m'sia..to K.L..yeah..after the long wait..haha..but then there's my fyp n cheer trng..have to miss le..

2009-03-30T00:45:00.003+08:00

YESH!! went to imm today with my sis..i cant wake up so we reach ard 12+ in the end..omg..was like so many ppl la..cant managed to find an extra album so in the end my sis nv go buy too..cox no album = cant enter..she dun wan throw me aside..arghx..we intend to stand at the side of the stage initially de..den ltr she go let them sign album..but.......btw..the area is enclosed at lvl3..

We end up standin at a place that's near to the stage lvl4..where we can managed to squint our eyes to see..stick our ears close to the glass and i heard them singing mo mo this song..and so qiao, that's where they came from to reach the stage first..wahaha..so heng..and when they took toilet break, 2times, we can rush over there see them..so close, so near..totally right in front of me only..hohoho..

I"M SO EXCITED!! gt the piao piao ran de feeling..WOOHOO~~~

this is the video that i lke best!

see that!! jiro!!! omg..fainted liao..lol..=) this is the sec toilet break they having..no yalun..

2009-03-24T20:07:00.000+08:00

YEAH~~~ I finally dyed my hair..no more guai guai gal..lol..=)

2009-03-22T23:52:00.003+08:00

I miss my sec sch life!! so much so much!!!
couldn't sleep well ytd..my mind was all about sec sch life..

I MISS THE LAUGHTERS WE HAD!
I MISS THE TIMES WHERE WE SNEAK FOODS IN TO PHYSICS LAB!
I MISS THE TIMES WHERE WE WILL SECRETLY SNEAK OUT FOR OUR SELF DECLARED TOILET BREAK AFTER ALMOST EVERY LESSONS!
I MISS THE TIMES WHERE WE ARE LATE FOR LESSONS ESP BIO AND PHYSICS!

I EVEN MISS THE TIMES WHERE WE USED TO HANG OUT DURING SAT! AND AFTER WHICH THEY WILL ACC ME HM FIRST!

okok..end of my fa lao sao thingy..lol..

oh ya..cheerobics finally over..and perhaps trng gonna starts soon?? having a mixed feelings..i'm rather excited and happy cox i can finally get back to trng..my skills all rusty liao..lol..but at the thought of PTs.............also, i felt rather wierd now..i mean when i'm tgt wif them..idk..haiz..

2009-03-21T01:49:00.002+08:00

Expt 1: Cookies making with eileen
Introduction: Ytd gone to made cookies wif eileen and the help of my lao ma zi..Initially, everything was fine (we followed the steps accordingly) until when we put into the microwave..

Result: See my cookie..chao da one..tsk..haha..first attemp failed..shall try again..
Conclusion: we are using microwave oven instead of oven..so perhaps that's explains why my expt failed..lol..

FEI LUN HAI COMING SPORE AGAIN!! AND YES!!! I"M SO EXCITED ABT IT!!!

Trip to ZOO!!

2009-03-18T00:05:00.007+08:00

This is the horse i'm mentioned in my previous post..lol

the largest and longest snake found in the zoo..it can grow up till 9metres ???

This is the raccoon i'm talkin abt..suddenly popped out in front of my sight..

the sun bear was so cute la..like hugging the log..and cox it's abt to rain at that time, then there's a thunder suddenly..the bear xia dao and shiver..haha..

The ~~dead~~ tiger..

the ~~statue~~ white tiger

And finally, the photo i had..and see wad's my fren holdin on to..haha..

2009-03-16T21:21:00.002+08:00

today went jurong point wif my fren and guess who i saw?? 陈泓宇Shaun Chen..haha..he's rather good looking la..hee..noticed him went we were walkin pass the spec shop..cox at that moment, i was wondering why my fren kept walking to my side and not straight..then she suddenly become so high lydat..she told me she saw him..so i u-turn back specially go see..haha..

2009-03-15T20:39:00.003+08:00

Went to zoo today..overall, i enjoyed my day although it's raining..shall named out some interesting parts:
watch a performance which was so funny.."save the rainforest"??? and took a photo..
saw 2 white tigers..1 sleeping deadly and another like statue lydat..
saw monkeys..but i dunno wad's the name of it liao..the young ones are running all around the place..like playin catching..
saw crocodiles..we thought the bigger crocodile wanted to snatch the place where the smaller crocodie was at..cox it pushes the smaller one away..but it ended up followin the small one behind..
saw horses..a horse named belle, she's so shy that she actually walked away when we went near her..when we left her alone far far..she actually walked back to the front and continued eating..
saw raccoons..they suddenly popped out in front of my sight..1 at the back and another at the front of us..which in turns scares me sia!!!

Shall upload the photos next time..!

my back pains again!!! my body aching all over..when we was heading back, i suddenly can feel the ache..haiz

2009-03-03T00:35:00.002+08:00

Today went to watch xiao yuan superstar at mediacorp..i'm so pissed off when i was getting the tickets..really so confused as to where to get the tickets..the aunt at the theatre entrance there told me dun have anymore tickets liao le..but i did emailed them asking for 3..den she asked me go reception counter there..kept going here and there lo..lucky i go explained things to the aunt again den she let us enter the theatre..and whoa..the qi fen really so different as comapred to when u are watchin at hm lo..so shiok..lol..watch the whole program until 11pm just to listen to derrick singing 2songs only..lol..

2009-03-01T00:44:00.003+08:00

Today went jurong point with my parents..started a quarrel with a middle age women working at burger king..in the first place, i wasn't feel good le, my mood not right so gang hao na ta lai chu qi..lol..so unreasonable..accused me of blocking her way when there's still some space through..cox of that thrash bag..can't she walk other way round..after a while, it's another guy..the same old thing.."cox he's rather ~~muscular~~ fat la!!" lol.. others can walked pass too.

I'm down with sore thoat and flu again!!! arghx..

and oh I'm so excited about this!! u know wad?? i'll be going to mediacorp..YES!! to attend the campus superstar thingy..main aim is to see derrick..WHEE~~~~

Rainie Yang, Jiro Wang, George Hu Comings...

2009-02-20T23:41:00.003+08:00

WOOHOO~~~ today after FYP gone to cwp see Rainie Yang, Jiro Wang, George Hu..we reached around 4+ (all thanks to the faci la..although my person is there, my mind went away le..lol) den went to eat at food court..den go there wait..at level 3 lo..walao..so far la..know the password for entry also no use..i'm not within the 250person..can't go stage tk the poster..arghx..tsk..also..the actual thing starts at around 8.15pm lo..they are late by 1hr+...

Okok..shall go to FAHRENHEIT AUTO SESSION next time..early early man..cox jiro says he'll be coming again real soon..hee..

On 2nd march, i wanna go to the xiao yuan superstar thingy..gt derrick as the special guest..must get tickets and ask my frens along..HOHOHO...here i come again!!!!

2009-02-13T20:39:00.003+08:00

hee..today i saw dai yang tian at RP sports complex..he came just for the upcoming show..heard from my fren they are at there de..so during our break, my whole FYP team gone to sport complex.. they said nomally i was walking behind them de.but when it comes to this, i was right ahead of them..and normaly i was quiet de but when it comes to this.....haha..but a pity, it's ard 10mins only..and also..i intend to go back again..after the FYP stufs, but somehow our result went wrong..so the lesson was dragged on until it's the time i had to left RP for an interview..so bo bian..cannot go see see..gonna try my luck this tue..wee~~~

ok..enough of it..ytd FYP stufs lasted until ard 6pm..i saw them preparing the mats..had the intention to go over..i hesitiated..but in the end..i still choose to go hm..felt kind of wierd going alone nowadays..I'm waiting for cindy to acc me!!!

20th feb - rainie yang, da dong and another guy?? coming over to cwp..7pm??? should i go??? eileen have exams..mayb i'm joining alice..hee..i wanna watch this drama!!!

2009-01-29T23:54:00.003+08:00

haiz..what's the hell is this ELISA thingy?? what is PCR?? what are the other methods to detect E.COLI??? can't seems to understand what i'm reading..shit..these ELISA and E.COLI words kept appearing on my mind..regretted!! i really really regretted!!! why did i even agree with my FYP team on choosing this topic when i haven even study abt it b4..?? oh ya..cox i thought that since there's 2fyp project, we will change team..we will change topic again..but NO!!! we will do sth related to this for the other FYP too..think i gonna flunk my whole FYP liao..sigh

2009-01-28T20:35:00.004+08:00

see she so kelian..studyin even during CNY..haha..she's having test on thurs and this shows how "GOOD" NYP is la..lol..

me with crystal

me with eileen

see her "ugly" face..wahaha..

stoning in process!!

Took this pic when she nv noticed it..haha..

2009-01-26T21:36:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!
恭喜发财，红包一个来...hee

ytd had steamboat at my grandma hse..was rather fun la..i kept throwing all those foods like prawns, meat and all that i cooked to eileen (趁她不注意的!!) ..lol..my rubbishbin..she noticed it only when her bowl was full..so slow la..wahaha..
den when she got up to get drinks, i kept calling her selfish gal.. sell fish --> 卖鱼 .. she dun understand what i'm talking about until my cousins told her what it actually meant la..lol..

SERENE MISS CHEERLEADING!! SHE MISS TRAININGS!!! 6weeks of slacking la...

2009-01-19T19:48:00.003+08:00

i simply don't understand how some ppl can be so irresponsible...in everything including taking care of her own dog..

1. don't clean his poo..don't shower it frequently..
2. don't feed him much less to say buy food..all she says was he's so fat, won't die without foods for days de la..
3. when hm, don't even bother to play or acc him..or even nv buy toys!!!

If I have a choice, I wouldn't want a sister like her!!!

I feel so fat now!! seriously, i needa go gym!!! my stamina~~~

2009-01-14T19:07:00.001+08:00

I'm down with flu..omg..but my sore throat's getting better..

2009-01-13T21:15:00.001+08:00

sore throat!!! omg~~

2009-01-12T11:44:00.002+08:00

Saw this quiz How Old is your Inner Child [Based on Psychological Theories] from eileen's blog and decided to take it..as u know la..RP so boring..too much time to spare liao..so decided to take this quiz..i read so long le, still dun understand today's problem..omg..felt like leaving..but gt ut again..

and the results is:
Your Inner Child is 10-11
Your Inner child wants to grow up, and imagines what the future will hold. Your inner child is very influenced by other people thoughts, and can be quite indecisive, won't make a fuss, and "goes with the flow". Your inner child needs situations where they can be confident and make their own decisions.

http://www.quizilla.com/quizzes/4749217/how-old-is-your-inner-child-based-on-psychological-theories

okok..i decided to pon next week on mon(lab session) and tue..patient care is rather interesting..so mayb i'm going sch..P & T is lab session..was thinking whether to come for lab only..tue i will be having my last applied chem II UT..FINALLY!!! but most probably i won't be coming back and to tk the UT..